Then
Jesus was led up by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by
the devil. (Matthew 4:1)
Jesus
said to him, "Away with you, Satan! for it is written, 'Worship
the Lord your God, and serve only him.'" Then the devil left
him, and suddenly angels came and waited on him. (Matthew
4:10-11)
I
have a confession to make. I hate Lent. I really do. It’s cold,
gray, dark, gloomy, and downright depressing. Six weeks of
soul-searching, self-deprivation, and repentance leave me depleted
and defenseless. And as much as I hate to admit it, that just might
be the point.
Jesus
spent 40 days fasting in the wilderness - wandering, hungry, thirsty,
lonely. When he is finally depleted and defenseless, he is tempted
by comfort, by immortality, by power. It doesn’t seem fair. It
doesn’t seem to make sense.
Until
you get to the crucifixion. Forty days of fasting in the wilderness
seems like tough work until we experience the last days of Jesus’
life on earth. Again, Jesus is tempted with comfort, immortality,
and power. And again, he rejects them all in favor of God’s
world-transforming work.
Apart
from the somber barrenness of this season, I must admit that my real
aversion to Lent stems from the fact that this season holds me
accountable to all the ways I give into temptation every day. The
temptation to cling to what I know, what I have, and what I can
accomplish. The temptation of prideful perfection.
Every
Lent, I realize I couldn't have survived temptation in the
wilderness, much less on the cross. I’m debilitated after a few
weeks of just thinking about it all. God said to Paul, as he
struggled with weakness, that “My grace is sufficient for you, for
power is made perfect in weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:9)
Perhaps
this is where God wants us. Weak, uncertain, ready to give in. The
hope of Easter is the only thing that keeps me going through Lent.
Perhaps it is in weakness that we are truly prepared to receive the
miracle of the resurrection.
God
of grace, turn our weakness into your strength, our insufficiency
into your abundance, our mortality into eternal life, as we await
with longing the final redemption of your creation. Amen.
Amy
Morgan