Psalm
119:105
Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.
Many
of my friends from seminary seem to have such wonderful “call
stories.” Some of them seem like they belong in a Cecil B. DeMille
movie. Mine was much less dramatic…just this feeling of being
nudged for seven years. And unlike many of these friends, I was very
uncertain as to where this call was taking me. So many people heard
God’s voice so readily and clearly, it seemed, and I was envious.
I
prayed so often to hear God speak to me, to let me know I was on the
right path, and give me a clue where this was headed. I often joke
that I’m looking for a billboard in the sky with blinking lights
and God’s message to me. After all, I’m not getting any younger,
God!
One
particular night after rushing out of work to get to school on time,
I was standing in the pouring rain, 113 pages behind in reading for
class, and I couldn’t get the code to open the seminary door. All
I could think was, “God, what in the world am I doing?” I was so
frustrated! And God spoke to me. There was no doubt about it. God
said, “Go in and get to class.”
I
laugh when I think of it. No angels, no drum rolls, no pat on the
back or encouragement – just “Go in and get to class.” And I
realized then that I had gotten exactly what I had asked for. An
answer. Stay the course.
It’s
hard when answers don’t come in the form we are looking for, or
packaged the way we want. And I have learned that although God
answered me clearly that night, I receive answers to questions all
the time if I just open my ears to hear and my eyes to see.
Loving
and ever faithful God, Help me to remember that you often light our
paths with a little spark; a spark that gives great light if we just
open ourselves to be led by it. Amen.
Joanne
Blair
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